Updated: May 23
I became complacent.
It's a character flaw of mine. I'll own that.
"I wrote and people read it, and now I've proven that I can do it, so I can stop for a while."
"I have a partner that is clearly head over heels for me, so I can stop trying so hard."
"They can't actually expect me to teach my children all of this while working on my marketing projects and getting my real estate license - how is this fair?"
"I gained 15 pounds cause I make everything with a stick of butter and a side of french fries..meh, gyms are closed and I was skinny anyways."
Between home schooling my two girls, real estate licensing classes, my blog and my relationship - I think only one actually made it through all of this, and that one is still in progress. My motivation got swallowed by quarantine, and I sat and made excuses for my poor behavior.
We have to have more respect for ourselves than being OKAY living a mediocre life.
Going through the motions, overthinking, feeling insecure, looking for validation from others, and blaming others for my problems...jeez I sound so sad... My post quarantine goal is to get out of this mindset. Yo, if you're reading this...you're a bad bitch - don't let anyone, or any situation EVER make you feel like you are less than you are. Not even quarantine.
As we come out of this quarantine bit by bit, remember - the solution to your problems is YOU.
YOU are the only one that can pull yourself out of a funk. Get the hell up and start showing up for yourself.
Non Pro Tip:: Not feeling connected enough to the world around you after being quarantined- join Bumble BFF (y'all I joined last night and I was terrified, but it isn't that bad!) Once you get passed the feeling that you are hitting on potential girlfriends you'll be good to go!
And can I tell you - getting a match with a new potential girlfriend is 100% more thrilling than matching with a guy - and they'll likely never leave you on read.
Now...back to your regularly scheduled programming.